Today I didn't have much time in the studio, and I wanted to feel like I worked. Perfect opportunity to start sanding a painting! This has been on my to-do list for some time. This process of sanding ties together two ideas I really like: archeology and erasure. I am sanding down the painting Breathe. This painting was a part of the exhibit 'What You Believe is What You See' of 2016. I love transforming already completed paintings as I feel it adds to their meaning. This painting in particular has had many iterations...4 to be exact. You can see the history at the end of this post. There is something very liberating about bringing an electric sander to a finished painting. It's the feeling that the painting is once again filled with possibilities and that nothing should be allowed to become too precious. In this case, as I began sanding, I felt it was an appropriate metaphor for the evolution of the Self, As the sander took away layers of paint and collage, I remembered the moments in the studio when I had added these layers. I remembered what I was going through in that time in my life. This process is what makes me think of archeology-an unearthing of the past. I also was feeling inspired to grind down the rough edges and come to a new space of understanding about the simple and most essential qualities of the breath. I guess I can call this my sanding meditation, which is where the idea of erasure comes in. Can I recognize but also let go of these past experiences in order to feel a stronger sense of clarity and freedom? Plus, it just feels good to work. Sometimes basic labor is the best form of insight.
Before sanding... 9/5/2017
A close-up after sanding 9/5/2017
Former iterations of the painting: